My nerves, my poor nerves! Dangling in my head, connected and cross connected in all the wrong sort of ways. I don't believe God makes mistakes, so in my case I am tempted to think I truly am the guinea pig of God's 3 year old kid.

Why else would I get upset about one issue, but blow another out of proportion?
When someone hurts me and I confront them, why do I cry despite my resolve not to? Why would I get annoyed at someone but victimize somebody else? Why would tears swell in my eyes when I am infuriated beyond limits? That's the last thing I need when I am angry, I try to shoo them away but they keep coming! I am not sad, neither am I feeling weak and definitely not sorry, there's no dust around... why do tears come? On the other hand, why would I crack really good jokes when I feel nervous? Why do I become a kid when I am happy (for all 'non-kid'-ish reasons too)? The only unadulterated feeling I guess is to feel brave. (Thank God and his 3year old kid for that!)

Connections are all messed up on this circuit board. Boy, the explanations I have to come up with due to this messy wiring!